15 Week Bumpdate

I have this dress in two colors. It's non-maternity, but works perfectly with or without a bump! So flattering.

How far along? 15 weeks (and a couple days)What is Baby G up to? Baby G is the size of a navel orange. I'm pretty sure I felt some movement earlier this week, and I'm positive I saw baby moving when I was laying flat on my back the other day. If this babe is anything like his or her brother, then sitting still just doesn't happen.How am I feeling? The answer to this question changes day to day. One day I'm full of energy, upbeat and ready to take on the world and the next I'm hovering over the toilet all morning and taking three hour naps - that is if it's the weekend. I'm pretty sure my coworkers are starting to worry about my mental state cause I've been like a walking zombie at work, but honestly, I'm just beat.I keep recalling the specific thought I had when I was pregnant with Finn, that people actually do pregnancy with another kid at home - more often than not, a toddler! I remember thinking it would be impossible, and I wasn't far off. Yes, I'm being a bit dramatic, but at the end of a work day, I'm finding it even more difficult to find the energy to be a mom. It's draining, and got me thinking a lot about my future as a mom of two kids. But more of that below...What am I wearing? I'm trying to be more aware of the pieces I'm buying this pregnancy. I want to ensure that my wardrobe can work for post-pregnancy as well, so I'm investing in pieces that I like with or without a bump. Right now, I'm still in a lot of my normal clothes, with some exceptions (the jeans went out the window around week 8), but with the weather being so warm, dresses are doing the job just fine.

What am I craving/eating? Not having any overwhelming cravings this pregnancy, just letting myself eat what I want, without stressing the number on the scale too much. I started this pregnancy below my first pre-pregnancy weight and my weight gain has been very similar to my pregnancy with Finn. I stressed about how my body looked a lot the first time around, but was pleasantly surprised at how well I bounced back, so I'm letting myself enjoy this time, without going too crazy.What's on my mind lately? Like I mentioned above, the thought of being a working mom of two has my mind racing. I just don't like the thought of it. Let's take a trip down memory lane... when I first had Finn, I remember looking forward to going back to work, I think for the sense of normalcy. I craved adult attention and a purpose other than nursing and changing diapers. Somewhere along the road, maybe when Finn was nine or ten months old, I started dreading the daycare drop-off. And the older he gets, the harder it is for me to say goodbye to him every morning. Now that he's two, I can't stop thinking about all the time I've missed with him. The normalcy I once craved is becoming stale, and a little meaningless. I struggle with this daily! And that alone is exhausting. Is getting a paycheck worth it? There's the career woman in me that argues that it is, but more and more of me is becoming a mom, and being a stay at home mom is something I never envisioned for myself. Now we are a few months away from having two children and I know that mom feeling will only grow. I find purpose being a mom, and that fuels me. And, I'm tired of choosing between the two worlds. I think this topic could be it's own post, because I have a lot to say about it. But this is certainly the most overwhelming feeling I have right now. Any other mamas relate?What am I looking forward to? David has been out of town this week for work, so I'm looking forward to him coming home! I'm also looking forward to adding some decoration to our bare walls and maybe finally pulling the trigger on an area rug?? We will see...Best moment of the week? Finn is talking up a storm. The other day, we went to Lowe's to pick up a few things and as David was checking out, Finn and I decided to sit on the tractors outside and play. I sat right in a puddle, and poor Finn was soo distraught that I got wet! He kept telling David that "Mama sat on tractor, got wet". It was adorable... the whole way home!